i got your letter in the mail on saturday! i like the winnie the pooh grizzly bear. but i agree, your mom is right about checkin if it was the right inbox. dont wanna send out a package and have it go somewhere else.
awesome! i’m glad :) i’ll send it out as soon as i can!
Week 3: Pasadena City College: I'm Not Dead Yet! (but i soon will be)
it’s been a long good while since i’ve been here guys, i know. i’m just really tired from school. i wish i had my license, a car, and money so things could be easier, but i don’t. in this week alone, i’ve:
thrown up all over myself,
lost my id that has my bus pass on it,
found my id (mille grazie, professoressa maggio!!),
got lost trying to find my boyfriend in the parking lot, which had me literally walking around the entire perimeter of my huge campus at 10:00 pm,
had to wake up at 4:30 Tuesday and Thursday to catch the bus,
have to clean my house for my mom,
have to catch up on piles of homework,
have to work,
deal with stupid people,
try to find a new job,
mail out a package,
and try to see my friends,
not hurt people,
I really just want to make my life better but every time i try, something happens and i end up 10 steps back. Sometimes i feel like just leaving this place and starting new. just getting up and going and leaving for a week or two. i don’t know what it is about adventure and renewal, but i need to find myself and get going because i can’t continue this life in my skin anymore.. it’s becoming old and saggy and it’s time for me to shed..
on what my cousin and I could do during her visit. Unfortunately she didn’t have much more time to hang so we just kept it simple and hit up Leo Carrillo beach and got some awesome food at Neptune’s Net.
If we did have more time we definitely would have checked out Jurassic Technology, mummies…
OMG! Leo Carrillo beach is where me and my boyfriend shared our first kiss!!! I didn’t know other people knew about it too!!! <3 And hey since you couldn’t take your cousin to all of those places, how about you go yourself?
gurrl, i will because i like you. maybe not in person (cause i don’t hang out with you everyday) but i like what you post, you seem to have basic common sense, and i feel what you’re going through (family wise). i understand that when you have intense family problems everything else outside of that feels worthless. i remember when my dad walked out on us, how i gave up on everything; drawing, music, nothing was ever good enough for me. and then i decided to actually just DO IT and those things and some awesome support from my friends got me through it. you gotta keep your head up and you gotta keep thugging, i swear. you have the world on your shoulders, i know. but the people in your family are unintentionally depending on you. and it’s not because they dislike you or anything like that — so don’t think that at all. it’s because you can handle many of the things that they can not. so ANYWAYS, imma send you some stuff, like a care package, cause like i said, i like you, you have positive vibes, and i’ve been there. and i don’t like for people i have a general relationship with (even if it is fucking tumblr) to suffer. it’s gonna be okay, maybe not now, or tomorrow, or this month, or this year, but it will get better and you’ll be glad you didn’t give up hope. stay strong, and stay black (from one black girl to a native american/canadian?)